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The first time I saw her |
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Everything in my head went quiet. |
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All the tics, all the constantly refreshing images |
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just disappeared |
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When you have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder |
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You don’t really get quiet moments. |
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Even in bed, I’m thinking: |
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Did I lock the doors? Yes.Did I wash my hands? Yes. |
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Did I lock the doors? Yes.Did I wash my hands? Yes. |
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But when I saw her, |
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the only thing I could think about was the hairpin curve of her lips |
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Or the eyelash on her cheek |
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The eyelash on her cheek |
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The eyelash on her cheek. |
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I knew I had to talk to her. |
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I asked her out six times in thirty seconds. |
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She said yes after the 3rd one, |
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But none of them felt right, |
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So I had to keep going. |
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On our first date |
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I spent more time organizing my meal by color than I did eating it |
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or talking to her |
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But she loved it |
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She loved that I had to kiss her goodbye sixteen times or |
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twenty-four times if it was Wednesday |
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She loved that it took me forever to walk home |
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Because there are lots of cracks on our sidewalk |
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When we moved in together, she said she felt safe |
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like no one would ever rob us because |
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I definitely locked the door eighteen times |
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She close her eyes |
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And imagine days and nights what passing infact. |
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When she said she loved me |
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Her mouth was a straight line. |
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She told me that I was taking up too much of her time. |
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Last week she started sleeping at her mother’s place. |
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She told me that she shouldn’t have let me get so attached to her |
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that this whole thing was a mistake |
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But how can it be a mistake that I don’t have to wash my hands |
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after I touched her? |
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Love is not a mistake |
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It’s killing me |
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that she can run away from this and I just can’t. |
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I can’tgo out and find someone new because I always think of her. |
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Usually, when I obsess over things |
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I see germs sneaking into my skin. |
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I see myself crushed by an endless succession of cars. |
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And she was the first beautiful thing I ever got stuck on |
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I want to wake up every morning |
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Thinking about the way she holds her steering wheel |
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How she turns shower knobs like she's opening a safe |
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How she blows out candles |
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Blows out candles |
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Blows out candles |
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Blows out candles |
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Blows out candles |
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Blows out the candles.blows out… |
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Now, I just think about who else is kissing her. |
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I can’t breathe because he only kisses her once |
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He doesn’t care if it’s perfect! |
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I want her back, So Bad! |
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I leave the door unlocked. |
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I leave the lights on. |
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Change,right |
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When I be imagined to change two things |
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Listen and speak up |
