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作曲 : Natalie Sims/Kenneth Chris Mackey/Tyshane Thompson/Kevin Burgess/Joseph Prielozny |
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It must've been 3 A.M. when the text came in |
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The sum of my fears |
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My stomach bending, my thumb was trembling |
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No pun intended |
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But I wanted to die when I saw it was him |
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And it read KB |
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This time it's real |
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Homie, I can't live |
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It was in all caps |
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But I knew he had no caps on his guns or his pills |
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So I ripped out the door |
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All the covers down on the floor, no shoes |
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I just walk on my tears |
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Calling him over and over and over again |
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While I'm throwing the car into gear |
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Could he be so selfish? |
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Will this effort fail too? |
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Why won't he answer, answer, he answer? |
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Jason, hello? |
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It's suicide, suicide, suicide |
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Got one in the chamber |
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That's waiting to take you right out tonight |
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Don't roll the dice |
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Roll the dice, roll the dice |
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It's all on the table |
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It's all for the taking |
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But what's the odds? |
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Yeah |
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I parked in the street |
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At the car with the keys |
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Should I call the police? |
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What if he turns it on me? |
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Then I looked up, is that him over the sink? |
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I can't think |
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My tongue is as heavy as my heart |
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I can't speak |
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Every time I blink I'm a step closer |
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My heart about to burst |
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As I close up on the front door |
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And give the doorbell a ring |
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It was unlocked so I ran to the top staircase |
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As I stare, got a case on the floor |
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Jason, open up |
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Continued to knock |
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Jason, open up, you ain't gotta do this |
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What about the kids? |
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Don't go Judas, you got reason to live |
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We could get through this, don't give in |
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Then I heard movement |
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And a voice I'll never forget |
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He said stop it, stop it |
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I'm about to cock it |
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You barely called back when I was in Iraq |
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Just leave homeboy, I got this |
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You know the truth is |
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I had to shoot kids |
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I'm so guilty |
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And God might let it go |
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But I'll never forgive me |
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Oh, why not? |
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The army never trained me to care |
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You don't know the horror of living in a war zone |
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And then coming back to civilian affairs |
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I made my bed, the tables were set |
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My wife moved out, I don't see my kids |
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Everything that gave me |
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Meaning is gone |
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The grief's deep-seeded |
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I bleed to the bone, I want out |
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Suicide, suicide, suicide |
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Got one in the chamber |
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That's waiting to take you right out tonight |
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Don't roll the dice |
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Roll the dice, roll the dice |
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It's all on the table |
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It's all for the taking |
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But what's the odds? |
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No, no |
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I ain't have a word |
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Not a story, not a verse |
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But the silence |
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I'm trying not to make this worse |
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I pray and I googled a search |
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Nothing from school that will work |
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But I grew up in the church |
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So what do I do? |
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Just fell to my knees and I started to blurt |
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I don't understand this, I don't understand this |
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But you been looking to the weed and them dancers |
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Don't be conned by the yay |
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Nobody in the west got the answers |
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Let's get established |
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Your life isn't yours to demand it |
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You can't do what you please |
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Jason, I love you |
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But the next step is God, homie |
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You ain't escaping a thing |
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You know Jesus he wanted to die in that garden |
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Acquainted to man in his sorrows |
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But he kept up the fight |
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'Cause he knew joy, it was coming tomorrow |
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You haven't squeezed that revolver |
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'Cause you know that there's hope |
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At the end of the tunnel |
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Embrace it, don't matter how faint it |
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God is not silent, please hear what he's |
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Jason! Jason! |
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(911 what's your emergency?) |
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Yes, uh, I got a friend he's |
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Locked himself in the bathroom |
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And I just heard a gun go off |
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I, I don't know |
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(Okay calm down, sir) |
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(Are you able to get inside the room) |
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Yeah, he, he's got me locked out |
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(Okay can you try to get inside the room) |
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Hold on I'ma try to |
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(Sir?) |
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Jason |
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Okay, he, he's not shot |
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He dropped the gun but he's passed out |
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(Sir I'm gonna need you to calm down) |
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No, no you calm down |
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Send help quick |
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Uh-oh |
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Uh-oh |
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Hope is calling you |
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Uh-oh-oh |
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Uh-oh-oh |
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Hope is calling you |
