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Insidious is blind inception |
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What's reality with all these questions? |
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Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in) |
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Broken legs but I chase perfection |
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These walls are my blank expression |
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My mind is a home I'm trapped in |
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And it's lonely inside this mansion |
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Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in lyrics |
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They're all over the place, there's songs in the mirrors |
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Written all over the floors, all over the chairs |
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And you get the uncut version of life when I go downstairs |
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That's where I write when I'm in a bad place and need to release |
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And let out the version of NF you don't want to see |
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I put holes in the walls with both of my fists 'til they bleed |
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You might get a glimpse of how I cope with all this anger in me |
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Physically abused, now that's the room that I don't want to be in |
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That picture ain't blurry at all, I just don't want to see it |
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And these walls ain't blank, I just think I don't want to see 'em |
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But why not? I'm in here, so I might as well read 'em |
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I gotta thank you for this anger that I carry around |
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Wish I could take a match and burn this whole room to the ground |
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Matter of fact I think Ima burn this room right now |
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Somehow this memory for some reason just won't come down |
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You used to put me in the corner, so you could see the fear in my eyes |
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Then took me downstairs and beat me 'til I screamed and I cried |
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Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind |
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But Ima keep the door shut and lock the lyrics inside |
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Insidious is blind inception |
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What's reality with all these questions? |
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Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in) |
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Broken legs but I chase perfection |
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These walls are my blank expression |
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My mind is a home I'm trapped in |
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And it's lonely inside this mansion (inside this mansion) |
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Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in pain |
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See my problem is I don't fix things |
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I just try to repaint, cover 'em up, like it never happen |
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Say I wish I could change. Are you confused? |
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Come upstairs and I'll show you what I mean |
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This room's full of regrets, just keeps getting fuller it seems |
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The moment I walk in to it is the same moment that I wanna leave |
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I get sick to my stomach every time I look at these things |
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But it's hard to look past when this is the room where I sleep |
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I look around. One of the worst things I wrote on these walls |
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Was the moment I realized that I was losing my mom |
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And one of the first things I wrote was I wish I would have called |
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But I should just stop now, we ain′t got enough room in this song |
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And I regret the fact that I struggled trying to find who I am |
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And I lie to myself and say I do the best that I can |
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Shrug it off like it ain't nothing like it’s out of my hands |
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Then get ticked off whenever I see it affecting my plans |
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And I regret watching these trust issues eat me alive |
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And at the rate I'm going they'll probably still be there when I die |
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Congratulations, you'll always have a room in my mind |
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The question is: Will I ever clean the walls off in time? |
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Insidious is blind inception |
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What's reality with all these questions? |
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Feels like I missed my alarm and slept in (slept in) |
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Broken legs but I chase perfection |
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These walls are my blank expression |
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My mind is a home I'm trapped in |
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And it's lonely inside this mansion (inside this mansion) |
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So this part of my house, no one's been in it for years |
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I built the safe room and I don't let no one in there |
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Cause if I do, there's a chance |
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That they might disappear and not come back |
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And I admit I am emotionally scared to let anyone inside |
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So I just leave my doors locked |
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You might get other doors to open up but this doors not |
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Cause I don't want you to have the opportunity to hurt me |
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And I'll be the only person that I can blame when you desert me |
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I'm barricaded inside |
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So stop watching |
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I'm not coming to the door |
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So stop knocking, stop knocking |
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I'm trapped here |
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God keep saying I'm not locked in |
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I chose this |
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I am lost in my own conscience |
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I know that shutting the wall down ain't solving the problem |
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But I didn't build this house because I thought it would solve ′em |
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I built it because I thought that it would be safer in there |
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But it's not, I'm not the only thing that's living in here |
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Fear came to my house years ago I let 'em in |
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Maybe that's the problem |
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Cause I've been dealing with this ever since |
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I thought that he would leave, but it's obvious he never did |
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He must have picked the room and got comfortable and settled in |
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Now I'm in the position it's either sit here and let him win |
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Or put him back outside where he came from, but I never can |
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Cause in order to do that I'd have to open the doors |
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Is that me or the fear talking? |
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I don't know anymore |
