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She was on her way to becoming a college graduate |
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Wouldn't even stop to talk to the average kid |
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The type of latina I'd sit and contemplate marriage with |
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Fuck the horse and carriage shit her love was never for hire |
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Disciplined intellectual beauty's what I desire |
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Flyer than Salma Hayek or Jennifer Lopez |
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Everyone told me kickin' it to her was hopeless |
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At first I just thought she didn't mess with broke kids |
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The thug niggas always talking about how they smoke kids |
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But the rich-sniff-coke kids got no play |
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"I'm not even interested" is what her body language would say |
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Everyone around the way gave up trying to get in it |
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It didn't matter how good your game was she wasn't with it |
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On the block bitches was jealous but wouldn't admit it |
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Talk shit and deny to everyone that they did it |
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'Cause they regretted the long list of niggas that they let hit it |
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And no one ever gave them shit except McDonald's and did-dick |
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Smoking weed with thoughts of envy whenever they lit it |
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She spoke intelligently and they bit it always trying to copy |
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But when they tried to use her vocab they sounded sloppy |
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She had a style all her own respectful and pure |
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I was sick in the head for her and there wasn't a cure |
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Don't you know that time waits for no man |
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Not fate it's all planned |
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I'm blessed just to know you |
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I've loved and I've lost just to hold you all night |
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Can't find a reason why |
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God came between you and I |
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If I had the chance again I'd never let you go |
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Hold tight to your love 'cause you never know |
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Her eyes are brown and beautiful yet empty and sad |
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I used to talk to her occasionally and she was glad |
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That I wasn't just another nigga trying to get in it |
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So every now and then we'd stop and talk for a minute |
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I didn't have a gimmick so the minutes turned to hours |
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On her birthday I gave her a poem with flowers |
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Then I took her out to dinner after her cousin's baby shower |
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We talked about power to the people and such |
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We spent more time together but it was never enough |
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I never tried to sneak a touch or even cop a feel |
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I was too interested in keeping it real |
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Perfectly honest and complete she would always call me "carino" |
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And never Technique bought me a new book to read every 2 or 3 weeks |
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Forever changing the expression of my thoughts when I speak |
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It was because of her I even deaded all of my freaks |
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She convinced me to stop hangin' out on the streets |
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To stop robbin' and stealin' from people like you |
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Instead I took her out to the Apollo and the Bronx Zoo |
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We sailed del Barrio and the Metropolitan too |
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Got to the point when I was either with her or my crew |
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So I decided one day to tell her my feelings was true |
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I couldn't live without her so I told her facing my fears |
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But honey's only response was a face full of tears |
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She could only sob hysterically holding me tight |
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I tried to speak but she wouldn't stop until I left sight |
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I felt like a moth who got himself too close to the light |
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Except I didn't burn I turned cold after that night |
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Don't you know that time waits for no man |
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Not fate it's all planned |
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I'm blessed just to know you |
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I've loved and I've lost just to hold you all night |
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Can't find a reason why |
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God came between you and I |
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If I had the chance again I'd never let you go |
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Hold tight to your love 'cause you never know |
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I went on with my life college and my career |
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Ended up locked up like an animal for a year |
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Where the C O 's talk to you like they were the overseer |
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Then I got sent to the hole when my exit was near |
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At night in my cell I'd close my eyes and I'd see her |
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Hold her close in my dreams but when I woke she disappeared |
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Just an empty cell until the state gave me parole in the summer |
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Came back in tact and on track |
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But the fact of the matter is I still felt cold |
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Even after my mother hugged me cryin' at home |
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My real niggas would catch me thinkin' out of my zone |
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Fuckin' lots of different women but I still felt alone |
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Relatively well-known around the New York underground |
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But I kept thinking of her and how we used to be down |
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The sound of her voice and the beautiful smell of her hair |
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Though gone physically somehow it was still there |
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I had to do something because the shit was too much to bear |
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So I went and visited the building where she used to live |
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The world looks a lot different after you do a bid |
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The way your life done changed |
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While primitive minds (are) still stuck in the same game |
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Like her cousin who was on the corner slangin' cocaine |
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Stepped in the lobby and tapped the button next to her last name |
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Her mom buzzed me up and hugged me up like a mother ought to |
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But her facial expression changed when I asked about her daughter |
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Don't you know that time waits for no man |
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Not fate it's all planned |
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I'm blessed just to know you |
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I've loved and I've lost just to hold you all night |
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Can't find a reason why |
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God came between you and I |
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If I had the chance again I'd never let you go |
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Hold tight to your love 'cause you never know |
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She told me that there was a note for me that was left behind |
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She had left it there waiting for such a long time |
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I was inclined to ask about it but she brought it up first |
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I saw a tear swelling up in her eye and then she cursed |
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She told me where the letter was and I started thinking the worst |
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Reversed my position stepped over and opened the door |
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And sure enough there was an envelope with my name on the floor |
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"Nobody loves you more than me carino" is what the letter said |
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"By the time you get to read this I'll probably be dead |
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But when you left in '97 a part of me went to Heaven |
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I thank God at least I got to know what love really was |
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But it hurt me to see what true love really does |
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'Cause even though we never made love you were all that there was |
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It was because I loved you so much that I had to make you leave |
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You made me doubt the way I thought you made me want to believe |
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And then I slipped up and I let you get close to me |
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It was hard to not be openly when people spoke to me |
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This was not the way I thought my life was supposed to be |
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Baby don't you see I had a blood transfusion that left me with HIV |
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Hoped the end exists for me since late in 1993 |
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I died a virgin I wish I could've given myself to you |
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I cried in the hospital because there was no one else but you |
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Promise that you'll meet me in paradise inevitably |
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No matter what I'll keep your love forever with me" |
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What happened for the rest of the day is still a blur |
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But I remember wishing that I was dead instead of her |
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She was buried on August 3rd |
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The story ends without a sequel |
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And now you know why Technique don't fucking fall in love with people |
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Hold the person that you love closely if they're next to you |
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The one you love not the person that'll simply have sex with you |
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Appreciate them to the fullest extent and then beyond |
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'Cause you never really know what you got until it's gone |
