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All the childhood abuse has got me lost and confused |
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Now I'm mentally bruised from all the times I've been used |
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To escape reality I get drunk off the booze |
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But when they offer me help I always refuse |
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I caused all the pain man im the one to blame |
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I know I always **** up but I'm tryna change |
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I'm tryna move on but I still feel the same |
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Now I'm filled with hate and I'm filled with Shame |
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My mental is so ****ed and I dunno how to fix it |
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So ima write some lyrics make a beat and then mix it |
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I'm sorry I pushed you away I'm sorry that I'm distant |
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I need to be alone my mind is so inconsistent |
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Never ever sleeping always up late |
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mentally drained nowadays I don't even skate |
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I miss the old days those days were great |
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What the **** happened now I'm just filled with self hate |
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When the **** will this pain fade away |
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I miss my life I miss the better days |
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These last couple years man I've given up faith |
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Been through so much shit I wish I could erase |
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It's not physical pain it's this mental agony |
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I get drunk and high to escape reality |
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I wish I could find a way to live happily |
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I'll be honest man I really miss my family |
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I've made so many mistakes I despise my self |
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I've been replaced so many times like a book on a shelf |
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Hopefully one day these dark days will be over |
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But until the end I will never be sober |
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I'm empty inside I feel like I've died |
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My friends tell me to get help but I've already tried |
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So I just stay in my room and get real fried |
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Insecure as **** man I've lost all my pride |
