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作词 : Benjamin Lasky |
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作曲 : Benjamin Lasky |
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I swear, they only love me when i’m not there |
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I know you trust me but I don’t care |
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I swear, that I don’t care |
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I know you love me but I don’t care |
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You know I was born up at the top floor |
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But I came out at a basement |
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Mom wanted me to be a doctor |
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But I came out as a patient |
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Now I get a thousand DMs everyday, I had a fan telling me that I saved him |
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Saying that he loving everything I make and I couldn’t take a single second out my day to make his |
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I’m just getting number every time I see my numbers |
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Every time I see the bottom |
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Every time we see each other |
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Every time I pop a bottle |
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Every time I hit the lotto |
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Every time I see tomorrow |
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I just really want another |
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I’m just stuck between the gutter |
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In the rain, it ain't pain, that i’m feeling, but it’s something in the same kinda vein, that i’m healing from, I wonder why I feel so little, cuz I ain’t been on the top I think i’m somewhere in the middle |
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I swear, they only love me when i’m not there |
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I know you trust me but I don’t care |
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I swear, that I don’t care |
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I know you love me but I don’t care |
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So what, so uh, So a, hole in my soul, that shit looking like a donut (Yuh) |
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You and me can laugh together |
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But I don’t think that thats gonna put it back together |
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I’ve been living like I’m stuck under the covers |
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I know this’ll make em proud, but I know they gone need another and another and another and another and another like i’m DJ Khalid with a mother ****ing stutter (‘Kay, yuh) |
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Today I woke up, grabbed my phone to check the gram I started scrolling |
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Got a message from a dude without a profile picture, shit was long as ****, I thought that he was trolling |
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So I tried to swipe it out but accidentally must of opened, I said **** it, guess I’ll read it, now that’s it already loaded, had a sudden premonition, but it faded in the moment so I focused, started reading, lemme try my best to quote as he wrote it, it said |
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“My homie was a huge ****ing fan, used to play your shit everyday. He struggled with depression and he told me that the music was the thing that always set him straight. But I guess it must of gotten to much, for him, killed himself a couple months back, it’s felt so ****ing long. But it reminded me of him when you popped up on my page and I went and started listening to a couple songs so.. |
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Keep doing you bro.” |
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He followed up with a post from his friend, it was a screenshot of my track, I, clicked the profile full of R.I.Ps and the comments, shit I couldn’t even stomach looking at but all the sudden, in the instant everything felt grimmer. Read the name again and realized it sounded familiar |
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Clicked the DM, to see if he had talked to me before |
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Saw this was the same kid I consciously ignored a couple months ago.. |
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I swear, they only love me when i’m not there |
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I know you trust me but I don’t care |
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I swear, that I don’t care |
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I know you love me but I don’t care |
