The Infinite Meditation of An Uncertain Existence

The Infinite Meditation of An Uncertain Existence

歌名 The Infinite Meditation of An Uncertain Existence
歌手 Cenotaph
专辑 The Gloomy Reflections of Our Hidden Sorrows
原歌词
[00:04.318] The extreme shortness of a fence around me, limitating the big lakes of a strange mind, alway thinking of what had been and what will be, as it gathers illusions and fantasies of a so vague and spiritless existences, so cold and dark, like the ancient times, like the uncertain present.
[00:34.271] Like the dreams that sometimes leaded my life… an life, to be and strange into a consciousness always unknown, unceasing fog which covers my eyes, Alway asking me the reasons and never answering the lights that I search, and I've lost; only and gloomy an tenuous reflection of a so deformed figure guides me in this so desolated path, repulsion towards my essence, the hopes were getting cracked, the screams grew as I drunk my tears at a forest so lonely like the very universe, although the stars never are alone.
[01:03.013] I was the only one in the hill, and the stars attended me and followed my pain; pain, tears, sorrow, bitterness and solitude, my only companions, those which were my wings now are just ashes, they were burned by them, I've never been so lonely, I've never met the true support from a spirit so strong like mine, so strong that now is just foam, my disgrace is eternal, and the whispers of happiness disappear, when my heartwill stop to cry and scream? perhaps the very sun ceases its shininess and when I can hear the total quiet silence.
[01:17.620] I abhor my disgusting stench that my body emanates, a body that never was and was just a hallucination into the dream of somebody else; everyone must suffer, the mockeries were enough and the damages irreparable; I've lost even my own love, love that never existed, falsehood and hypocrisy were the realities that brought me these winds, to these hills and to these so lugubrious towers, so tall, uncertain, like my own destiny; why can't my soul journey?
[01:30.212] Only visions I can feel and only the animal I can talk with, they are so grotesque, so disgusting, so evil, so human and so dead…with that flower, my ideas started to extended, they were budding like bubbles on a river of fire, but my flower became into a gelid structure full of treason, it was a magnificent fantasy, as immense was the disappointment.
[02:13.085] I suffocate when I recall my tragedies and awoke my old songs of colourful harmonies as well as flabbles, fragile was my will and serene will be my funeral, but I haven't passed away and carrion of those that I hate will be my food, wraiths of odd morbidities will eat with me, meanwhile, voices of an evoked doom ask for release from their infinite dream, I always ought to feel the utter dark, I flow like a ghost in an abyss of desperation, my concealest feelings appear while I get my place, so remoted place, while I look at the shadows of the past, I think I could escape from the extreme shortness of a fence around me.
歌词翻译
[00:04.318] 环绕我的围栏低矮至极,禁锢着奇异心智的广阔湖泊,总在思索那些过往与未来,汇聚着这场模糊无魂存在的幻象与空想,冰冷又幽暗,一如远古岁月,一如变幻莫测的当下
[00:34.271] 一如那些曾指引我生命的梦境...一段人生,在永远未知的意识中既熟悉又陌生,无尽迷雾遮蔽我的双眼,总在追问缘由却从未得到我追寻又遗失的光明;唯有扭曲身影的阴郁微光,在这片荒芜之路上为我引路,厌恶我的本质,希望已然碎裂,当我在如宇宙般孤寂的森林中饮下泪水,尖叫愈发剧烈,尽管星辰从不会令我感到孤单
[01:03.013] 我曾是山巅唯一的身影,星辰凝视着我、追随着我的痛苦;痛苦、泪水、悲伤、苦涩与孤独,它们是我唯一的同伴,曾是我的翅膀,如今却只剩灰烬,它们被他们焚毁,我从未如此孤寂,从未遇见过如我这般强大灵魂的真正支撑,那份强大如今只剩泡影,我的屈辱永无止境,幸福的低语已然消散,我的心何时才能停止哭泣与尖叫,或许当太阳不再闪耀,当我能听见全然的死寂才会停下吧
[01:17.620] 我所憎恶的身体散发的可憎恶臭,以至于让我怀疑这具躯体从未真实存在,只是他人梦境中的幻觉;人人皆需承受苦难,嘲讽已然足够,伤害无法弥补,我甚至失去对身体的自爱,那份从未存在的爱,虚伪与伪善才是现实,将我裹挟至这些山峦、这些阴森塔楼,高耸又迷茫一如我自身的命运,为何我的灵魂无法远行和解脱
[01:30.212] 我只能感知幻象,只能与野兽交谈,它们是如此的怪诞、又是如此的可憎、如此的邪恶、如此的如人性般残忍自私,又如此死寂...那朵娇花让我的思绪开始蔓延,如火焰之河上的泡沫悄然萌芽,但我的心中之花终究化作冰冷的背叛之躯,那曾是壮丽的幻想,失望却同样深重
[02:13.085] 回忆起我的悲剧、唤醒旧日歌谣时我窒息不已,那些色彩斑斓却又空洞的旋律,我的意志曾如此脆弱,我的葬礼将一片宁静,但我尚未离去,我所憎恨之人的腐肉将成为我的食粮,怪异病态的幽魂与我同席,与此同时,被召唤的厄运低语渴求从无尽梦境中解脱,我注定要拥抱全然的黑暗,如幽灵般飘荡在绝望深渊,当我抵达那遥远之地,深藏的情感悄然浮现,凝视过往的阴影,我想,我或许能挣脱,这环绕在我身边的低矮围栏...