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This a warnin' for the ones who say they aren't afraid |
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Lately I've been comin' from a darker place |
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I've been dealin' with depression, I'm more dangerous than ever |
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I've been drinkin' again and never felt better |
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I swear to God that I'ma burn a bridge and piss on the flames |
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Mix the ash with some whiskey and spit it all in they face |
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My new girl probably flip if you've got somethin' to say |
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She reminds me of myself when I would drink everyday |
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I used to feel like how I felt was just a temporary phase |
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But now I feel like the feelings are ******' feeding off fame |
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And I don't plan to slow down or give it a second to breathe |
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I push the pedal past the breaking point, I'm pickin' up speed |
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In 2016, swear I came apart at the seams |
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I was scared of the dark and therefore afraid of my dreams |
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But I rebuilt what came apart with iron alloy and beams |
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Come fly a plane into my legs and I won't fall to my knees |
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Haven't taken any pills to calm me down for a month |
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I'm on the edge and I'm waiting for any reason to jump |
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Don't take it lightly, I'm excited when they throwin' a punch |
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I got a list of different strategies to bury these bums |
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Very rarely do I carry all the weight of a grudge |
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But I been barely ordinary since the prairies and drugs |
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My imaginary friends in camouflage with some guns |
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And I've been fairly military but my army is one |
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They've been passive aggressive with how the deal with my message |
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They lack the passion and reckless nature of truthful expression |
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They ain't made of what I'm made from, |
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They been bruised up and dented |
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They don't understand the underhanded ruthless obsession |
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That I was born with, slammed like the door sticks |
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Closet full of skeletons, |
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So heavy couldn't move them with a forklift |
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Your ***** probably fell in love 'cause you forced it |
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Now she bump my records while you deep inside a porn binge |
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I woke up with a buzzin' in my head |
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I don't wanna leave the comfort of my bed |
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A dozen missed calls from a dozen of my friends |
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And my day just started but it's comin' to an end |
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Already gettin' dark, wake up with the stars |
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I don't even know how I got home after I left the bar, yeah |
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I did eight months sober, and I hate that it's over |
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But the weight on my shoulder started breakin' my heart |
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I started out with one or two, and then I moved to three or four |
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And then I realized that I was back where I had been before |
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Ativan's gone missin' from the bottle |
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Tell my doctor they were stolen, |
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But I know that they were swallowed |
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Everything I ever did was always done with open throttles |
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All the way or nothin', non-commitment is a broken promise |
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And I know that that's a problem in itself |
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But you're livin' or you're dyin' or you're cryin' out for help, yeah |
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It's been a week since I've felt like me |
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I've been starvin' but I just can't eat |
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I'm exhausted but I can't find sleep, |
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It's been harder than it's ever been |
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The darkness hasn't ever dimmed, the light's so bleak |
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I never understood what they meant when they said they were just |
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The shadows of men that they had been before they were beat |
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Now I know that everything I heard was for real |
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When I'm lookin' in the mirror at a shell of myself |
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I think that stress is a contributing factor |
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The bein' 28 and feelin' older than dad does |
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The wrinkles on my face spreadin' faster and faster |
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If the good die young, I hope I'm one of the bad ones |
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The day's long, stay strong and try again tomorrow though |
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Even if you're runnin' out of reasons to ignore the phone |
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Even if you're runnin' out of gas, go and borrow more |
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Your demons knock the hardest |
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When you finally chose to close the door |
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This not the way my parents raised me |
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I hope they realize they didn't fail one of their babies |
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This is the result of a declining social climate |
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That's original design was keepin' people trapped inside it |
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Liquor and violence, we suffer in silence |
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Until we embrace one another and find our collective defiance |
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Will topple the giants, I just try to smile though the cryin' |
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'Cause I know that someone, |
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Somewhere's, feelin' way worse than I am |
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And that's true (that's true, that's true) |
