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[ti:Deja Vu] |
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[ar:Eminem] |
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DMC, we have a mid-thirties male found down, unresponsive |
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Possible overdose, substance unknown |
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Pulse is 60 and thready, respiration's eight |
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He's intubated and we're bagging him now |
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BP 90 over palp |
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Patient is cool, pale, and diaphoretic |
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Has aspirated, GSC is 3 |
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We'll update en route ETA ten minutes |
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As I fall deeper into a manic state |
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I'm a prime candidate for the gene to receive the drug addict trait |
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Blood pressure climbs at a dramatic rate |
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I seem to gravitate to the bottle of NyQuil then I salivate |
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Start off with the NyQuil like, I think I'll just have a taste |
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Couple of sips of that then I gradually graduate |
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To a harder prescription drug called Valium like, yeah that's great |
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I go to just take one, and I end up like having eight |
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Now I need something in my stomach cause I haven't ate |
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Maybe I'll grab a plate of nachos and I'll have a steak |
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And you'd think that with all I have at stake |
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Look at my daughter's face |
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"Mommy, something is wrong with Dad I think |
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He's acting weird again, he's really beginning to scare me |
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Won't shave his beard again and he pretends he doesn't hear me |
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And all he does is eat Doritos and Cheetos |
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And he just fell asleep in his car |
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eating 3 Musketeers in the rear seat" |
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Sometimes I feel so alone, I just don't know |
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Feels like I been down this road before |
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So lonely and cold, it's like something takes over me |
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As soon as I go home and close the door |
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Kinda feels like déjà vu |
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I wanna get away from this place, I do |
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But I can't and I won't |
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Say I try, but I know that's a lie |
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Cause I don't, and why I just don't know |
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"Maybe just a nice cold brew, what's a beer?" |
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That's the devil in my ear I've been sober a ****in' year |
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And that ****er still talks to me he's all I can ****in' hear |
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"Marshall, come on we'll watch the game |
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It's the Cowboys and Buccaneers" |
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And maybe if I just drink half I'll be half-buzzed |
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For half of the time |
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Who's the mastermind behind that little line? |
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With that kind of rationale, man I got half a mind |
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To have another half a glass of wine |
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Sounds asinine, yeah I know, |
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But I never had no problem with alcohol |
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Ouch, look out for the wall |
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Aim for the couch, I'm 'bout to fall |
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I missed the couch and down I go lookin' like a bouncy ball |
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Shit musta knocked me out 'Cause I ain't feel the ground at all |
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Wow, what the **** happened last night? Where am I? |
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Man, **** am I hungover, and goddamn I |
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Got a headache, shit half a Vicodin, why can't I |
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All systems ready for take off, please stand by |
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Sometimes I feel so alone, I just don't know |
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Feels like I been down this road before |
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So lonely and cold, it's like something takes over me |
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As soon as I go home and close the door |
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Kinda feels like déjà vu |
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I wanna get away from this place, I do |
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But I can't and I won't |
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Say I try, but I know that's a lie |
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Cause I don't, and why I just don't know |
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So I take a Vicodin, splash it hits my stomach then, ahhhh |
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Couple of weeks go by it ain't even like I'm gettin' high |
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Now I need it just not to feel sick, yeah I'm gettin' by |
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Wouldn't even be taking this shit if DeShaun didn't die |
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Oh yeah, there's an excuse, you lose Proof so you use |
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There's new rules, it's cool if it's helpin' you to get through |
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It's twelve noon, ain't no harm in self inducin' a snooze |
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What else is new, **** it what would Elvis do in your shoes |
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Now here I am three months later, full-blown relapse |
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Just get high until the kids get home from school, holmes Relax |
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And since I'm convinced that I'm an insomniac |
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I need these pills to be able to sleep, so I take three naps |
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Just to be able to function throughout the day, let's see |
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That's an Ambien each nap, how many Valium, three |
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And that will average out to about one good hour's sleep |
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Ok, so now ya see, the reason how come he |
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Has taken four years to just put out an album, B |
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See, me and you, we almost had the same outcome Heath |
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'Cause that Christmas you know the whole pneumonia thing? |
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It was bologna, was it the methadone, ya think? |
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Or the hydrocodone you hide inside your pornos |
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Your VCR tape cases, with your Ambien CR |
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Great places to hide 'em, ain't it? |
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So you can lie to Hailie |
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I'm goin' beddy bye, Whitney baby |
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Good night Alaina! |
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Go in the room and shut the bedroom door |
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And wake up in an ambulance |
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They said they found me on the bathroom floor |
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Damn |
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Sometimes I feel so alone, I just don't know |
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Feels like I been down this road before |
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So lonely and cold, it's like something takes over me |
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As soon as I go home and close the door |
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Kinda feels like déjà vu |
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I wanna get away from this place, I do |
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But I can't and I won't |
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Say I try, but I know that's a lie |
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Cause I don't, and why I just don't know |
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Elamivl |
