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Today I looked up how long it would take to drown |
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Today I looked up how long it would take to drown |
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How long can you hold your breath before you can't hold your breath any longer |
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And how long until your lungs give out and the sound that used to fill the void |
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Quiets like a mass of midnight, searching for its piece of the pie |
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Today I stood in front of a window and imagined what it would be like to fly, no I didn't |
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I imagined what it would be like to jump outside the frame that caged me inside |
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But my better judgment said it wouldn't be very kind if someone you cared about found you |
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That's the voice that plays like a tape on rewind, rewind, rewind... |
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It wouldn't be fair to a stranger either |
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Today I'm reminded of the time I watched a man jump into a highway when I was just seventeen |
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The car lights on either side of the upper portion of the AutoRoute below standing at attention |
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Staring off into the distance |
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Just waiting for the road to clear |
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And the way to the comfort of their loved ones to be made |
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Death is a strange and hollow inconvenience when you think about it |
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There's a blank face that quickly and abruptly finds its way to all the witness something of that magnitude |
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It's not empathy, it's not sympathy |
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It's more of a force intrinsic and integral self reflection |
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Why would someone do such a thing? |
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What could drive someone to that type of depth? |
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Could I be driven to such depths? |
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Would I ever be able to jump? |
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There is no place to be soft in these moments, jump |
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There's no time to caught in this moment, jump |
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There's no need to believe there ever was a moment, jump |
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Sigh, believe, relief in this moment |
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Cause I could never be the one to be in this moment |
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Or could I? jump |
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Today I looked up how long it would take to drown |
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Do you first hold your breath? |
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Do you exhale all of your problems and worries before casting your thoughts to the bottom |
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Of an otherwise empty place below the poverty line of depressed thoughts |
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And the sad calamity of a hunted house you've called home? |
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I don't know |
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Maybe someone out there has an answer... |
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But for now I'm still trying to come to terms of the fact |
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That today I looked up how long it would take to drown |
